paranoid~

Experience makes a wiser man but there are some that can scare till you dare not take any step.
If I have to describe my current state now, it's shika otoko.

.abang.

Ages since last update.

Nothing much. Followed abang around cuz i wanted to get a bus ticket to kl. Alang2 keluar skali. Mom is worried about me going to KL - H1N1 spread - me too, to some extent. sanitizer and mask, checked. looking at abang running errands - collect rental fees, deposit checks, give out receipt, settle bills - it reminds me of my dad. he's now mak's right hand guy. along n anyah may see him doing nothing but sitting in front of computer, lazing around at home. but me thinks he does a lot more than that. the small gestures of him are full of thoughts and care of him towards the family. he stays up till dawn just to look after the house while everyone is sleeping. he does rounds in opah's room *since she doesnt close the door while she's sleeping* just to check on her. he wakes mak n me up for subuh. he waters the plants if mak n opah are too tired. he never fail to feed the fish both in the pond and in the tank. he doesn't talk much but his silence is enough to make this house a little bit merrier.

i have a confession to make.
I LOVE ABANG.
i shall never say it directly to the person himself.
sigh.

gathering ~conswan hen~

random happenings in no.18:
opah: *folding clothes* ni sluar dlm saper nih?
mana: aak, aesha nyer..
opah: lohh, pah igt didi nyer~~~
mana: ~~~~~~~~~~ *korrraaaaa!!!!~~~~~*

yesterday's gathering:

jaya, bellon (just got her name yesterday^^), fatin, zai, yua, dong, mun yee, su anne, chai fong, shaw yen, yong ting... everyone doesn't change much. mun yee, the ever so noisy, jaya the ever so kecoh, jumping from one seat to another...
except for yong ting, so senyap wan!!!!! wohhhhh~~~~
dong is finishing in 1 n a half year's time and she'll be a chartered accountant already??? hoi, i'm still a 2nd-year by that time, you know!!!
jaya is going to um already this sunday, sho sad...
darn you bellon, you don't have to point out that i'm out of things to talk about~~~
fatin, confused whether she's in "aesha" era or "mana" era, lols~
zai, wendu woohhhh, so long haven't see you lehhh~~~
yua, didn't know you're a do-s!!

yua: im not sure why i took medic, things getting tougher.. i don't know whether medic is for me or not..
mana: me too!! i was like "what the heck did i take mechy for?"
yua: yeah, i know. i saw your fb. i saw irene's too. glad to know ade org lain suffer jugak...
mana: OOIIIII!!!!!!~~~~


wish others were around too~~~
irene, suga, shaadah, kuma, erika...
wonder how farahin is now...

gathering, best2~~

note: if it wasn't for the gathering, i wont go to mcd...

my dream wedding~~~

i like dreaming about my wedding~~~

how old are you ?

20 this july.

are you single ?

nods.

at what age do you think u'll get married ?

i'll give myself some time till 27. when i exceed that number, i'll go on a desperate mode.

do you think you'll be marrying the person u are with now ?

jin? nakamaru? shitai!!!!!

if not, who do u want to marry ?

mizushima hiro? yeah, i know. he's married d...

who will be your bridesmaid or your bestman ?

besties.

do you want a garden , beach or traditional wedding ?

garden. my place's.

where do you plan to go for honeymoon?

all japan. thrill rides, wohooooooo!!!!!!!!!!! and ends with an onsen trip, soaking in together, hohoho^^

how many guest do you think you'll invite ?

a real small scale. don't think i can entertain everyone.

will that include ur exes ?

yup. i want them to go "wtf didn't i get her?"^^

how many layers of cake do you want ?

just enough for everyone. wasting is no good.. i want duper moist choc. yums!!!

when do you want to get married ? morning or evening ?
anytime is ok as long as the weather is nice. i'll check the weather forecast before having it.

name the song/tune you would like to play at your wedding ?

kat-tun's precious one. i'll pick the the ballad ones for the sweet and formal session. ten-g, pika2 and peaceful days for game session^^

do you prefer fine dining or just normal fork / spoon / knife ?

fine dining.

champagne or red wine ?

if it's halal, champagne of course. just because kame was in kami no shizuku, wont make me pick red wine... but as a sub, i'll go for white grape juice.

honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding ?

days. i'll make my husband to help my family out. it's a tradition for my household to have the newcomers help out.

money or household item?

both. wouldn't it look sad without any boxes of presents?

how many kids would you like to have ?

3 or 4. or maybe 3? yeah, 3.

will you record your honeymoon in CD or DVD ?

yup. i want to record the hideous moments to laugh my head off. isn't it kinda pretentious to have oh-so-sweet moments only? this is not some soap drama yoh...
i want lots of games on my wedding!!! ad-lib roleplay, musical chair, hit-and-block janken, guess-what's-in-the-box.. i want fun stuffs!!!!

i want to know their wedding plans:
ris
elle
meyk
najuk
ain
munie

tadaima!!!!!

PANASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~
duhhs, first thing once reached the land. humid and hot. was it this hot before? don't think so. now i'm having a 2nd thought of bringing my friends back home. just for your own knowledge, it's really hot here at my place. i myself am struggling with the extremes. well, mom's not here because she's off to langkawi with my sister. so, i'm yet to eat real malaysian food. sigh. but hey, at least, i got to have the long-time-no-eat kfc.
abg kamil: kfc tu mknan mewah taw, kalah victoria station!!!!
mana:~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
nevertheless, yums!!!
chinamini, what am i doing here, still awake at 4am, typing on the super slow internet-connected laptop, updating my oh-do-i-look-like-i-care blog? beats me.

p/s: have i told you before that nakamaru's hands are surprisingly hairy? not of the gorilla ones, of course. just this much...

samayou AKANISHI...

maa3...
kat-tun's dome con just ended yesterday. omigoto!!! lots of member ai in the air for the whole 8 days. with all the akame, marujin, kokame moments, they finally learned how to do proper fanservices. btw kame n koki, i shall now declare you as the KING & QUEEN OF SLUTS on stage. omedetou!! huggles n kisses, i lurv t that sorta fanservice. gimme more!!!^^ btw, it's confirmed already that they'll be having national arena tour from july-august. it's not that i'm really expecting them to come here (i don't think johnny-san would be so nice to let them, daa...) but it did make me went "eeeeeEEEEEE~~" for quite a while. shux....


well, back to reality, 5 papers done. maa2 ka naa. i'll just leave that part to God. nothing much could be done for those. so, only 1 paper and a 2-day workshop to go. quoted from Physics Year 1 Level C for Engineers: "huge gap between papers is directly proportional to loss in momentum." quickly finish this already, for goodness sake!!!!! so, basically, i'm kinda in a temporary holiday, i should say. 10 days in between. maybe i'll start studying in the last 5 days, i think? too many drama to finish, i might end up getting drama-sick duhhh..
no choice. running out of space. need to clean up my hard disk. *dusting2*

ciao~

habataku chou ni naru~~~

*dusting, dusting*

Cough.
It's been a while, everyone..

Today's highlights:

• assignment discussion. 2 questions to do. discussed for 4 hours. only managed to answer one. next discussion: next week. woii!!!! i want to finish quickly, here!!!
• shocked by 51pound worth of phone bill. called vodafone only to realize i subscribed insurance though I remembered making myself clear not to get one. but actually, the real culprit were the france calls. wi4x....
• body doesn't synch. head is somewhat dizzy and I tend to loss conscious though I'm very well awake and stand firmly on my feet. butterflies in stomach for no reason. heck~

mana needs roommates like ones in B2006. Why? It's because mana tends to get pressured by looking at her friends studying with all might. Now that mana is living alone in own flat in own room, mana lacks motivation. mana needs her enthusiasm to study like she used to have during mana's school days.

mana also looking forward for yellow letter from flat's reception saying that a parcel had arrived for mana. mana is currently in love with 1582. why? because it's the year of oda nobunaga's death. what that has to do with mana? kame likes oda nobunaga. what that has to do with mana? kame is singing 1582. what that has to do with mana? mana thinks that song rocks. moon too. mana likes japanesque~~

Ijyou.